Shiv was glad to sit down. He’d been knotted up inside since
the hold-up, not even the pleasure of Nico’s slap had unwound him. Normally
he’d have revelled in that, but guns made him nervous. Now he slumped in an old
upholstered grotesquery of a chair. He knew it was alive with bugs but the feel
of a material weft pleased him. He said
he liked the organics of it. Others said the organics of it liked him. He
absently picked an armoured scurrying thing from his forearm. He wondered what
kind of creature ate this. Everything gets eaten.
Nico preferred the floor.
She shuckled her jacket from her slender frame and allowed
it to languidly slip to her feet. Languid shuckling, one of the many benefits
of engineered materials. Any girl can strip as though she had the grace and
favour of Monroe. Not that Nico needs such gross tactics, she just likes the
way the cloth folds itself neatly beneath her as she sits.
And as she sits she sighs. And as she sighs she weeps.
Shiv feels sick. Her tears do that to men, even him. He doesn’t touch her. If he did he would lose his mind in the
labyrinths of grief she carries. She’s infectious like that. And the simplest
things, like getting mugged with what was almost certainly an empty gun, would
trigger her. All of her days and all of
her nights were spent subconsciously absorbing the petty hates, worries, fears
and dreads of those around her. That’s why they don’t go out so very much. But
today had been special.
Today is an anniversary. Shiv tries not to dwell on it for
the fear that his mind will further poison that of his sister. They had set out
atthe appointed time, as they did every year. Walking. Nobody with sense, or
without a firearm, walked these days. But that was how it had always been, how
they had always done it. A short walk up a steep hill to one of the few green
patches left in a carbolic city of cut throats and chancers. To buy flowers and
stand for a few empty moments. To take a refuge in the stillness of dead minds.
The last gift a parent can give to one such as her. Sometimes cut stems do have
healing powers.
This year they didn’t even make it there. With no money, no
tribute, she wouldn’t go on. She wouldn’t take without giving, not even from
the ten year old corpse of her father. Now she lay approaching a trauma state. Depression
they used to say. But it is the old curse of the empath, in a city of 20
million dark thoughts.
Shiv puts out the light and takes his own screaming mind
from the room. He can only be of help by being elsewhere. But that’s this city’s life all over.
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